Back to work.

Guess who went back to work on Monday? That's right John did. Can everyone say yea!! Well, after a long serious of tests, Dr. Appointments and a sleep study the answer is the same. "We don't really know, but this is what we think happened." John possibly had a blood clot in his heart which did not allow blood to circulate through which caused him to lose conscience's, from the fall he received a concussion. He does have a mild case of sleep apnea and will soon be receiving a sleeping machine. That ought to spice up our love life. !!! His shoulders are still a mess and cause him a great deal of pain. The doctors advice was to lose some weight and start exercising. If in fact is was a blood clot we are very lucky that he is still with us. Very scary. What prevents it to happen again? Nothing, because no one is sure what happened. I tend to over worry anyway this does not help. I think about it often. I wake up at night and sometimes can't breath in fear something is wrong, but I reach over and feel him next to me and can tell he is breathing just fine and then I can fall back to sleep. In our lives we go through a journey looking for that special person our soul mate and to come close to losing that person scares you to death. I can not imagine living without him even for a day. Sometimes I forget but I try to thank GOD everyday that we have each other because we all know there are no guarantees. So even though we argue I love him very much. I would like to take all his pain and carry that burden for him for the rest of my life. I often wonder what can I do? I have started changing his diet and I buy better foods that are in the house. I quit buying the twinkies and ho ho's. And of course love him .
So far he is doing just fine and it is almost Friday. !! Good Job honey.